This year has been the biggest, most important year of my entire life. A year full of happiness and hope. The year I became a mother to the most beautiful baby boy. The year I ended one chapter of my life to begin another. The year I realised that life doesn't always go the way you think it will and that's perfectly okay.
If you'd asked me this time last year how the year ahead would pan out, I never thought it'd see me become a mother. It's something I've always wanted to be. The one thing I wanted more than anything.
Something else I would never have imagined is that I'd become a single mother. I'm not here to share the ins and outs of it all but it's a big change in my life and something I'm not going to hide or be ashamed of. Things happen for a reason and I've realised that you're never given more than you can handle.
This year I've realised the lengths the important people in my life will go to show their love for me. I've always known how lucky I am to have such a wonderful family and best friend group but this year I've needed them more than ever and they've been there every step of the way. I've grown even closer to them and love them even more than ever before - something I didn't know was possible.
This year I found inner strength I was unaware I had and regained my spark, something I feel had been absent for quite some time. I remembered who I am, what's important. I've realised the life I want is possible.
This year I've fallen in love like never before and realised the love you feel for a tiny human, your tiny human, is like no other. Arthur is everything. A beautiful soul. Pure perfection. I feel so incredibly lucky to have him and will do everything in my power to make sure he has the most wonderful life.
A lot of people throw around the saying 'New Year, New Me' at this time of year but do you know what, I'm actually pretty happy with the current me. I'm not perfect but I know what's important in life and have the most wonderful people to share it with.
At midnight I will kiss my little boy, wish him Happy New Year and welcome 2016 with open arms. I'll think about how lucky I am to have him and how lucky we both are to have a loving family and special people in our lives. Arthur, my little one, we've got a lot to look forward to.